Its that time again… time to collect all the wonderful pieces on this train… and again, me not having my part up in time.   mmmm… bad me!  I have a really good excuse this time!   I will tell you the whole story when I post my part in a few days.  I am having a hard time focusing on anything to get this mini kit finished for you but its coming along!

This is the color palette for the month:

Remember to run thru the rest of the train HERE and then come on back!  You know I always give you the best treats!

So today is my 11 year wedding anniversary.  I guess technically it would still be considered the 11th year since the divorce isnt final.  I am having a hard time processing it.  I dont know how to feel about this day.  I’m sad and crying… have been all week actually, ever since I got an email wishing me and him a happy anniversary.  Dang email marketing crap!

So anyone out there have this experience?  How do you process the good memories amongst the bad times?  Granted our marriage was always rocky but I remember the day I got married.  I felt so special to be walking down the aisle.  I was excited and nervous and maybe doubting everything a bit.  We did get married very quickly.   But he made me feel loved and I always knew he loved me.

I dont want to talk about the negative parts of my marriage today because I cant change that.  I am just trying to deal with the bits of happiness that are now meshed with a situation that I can barely handle, a situation that I never in a million years expected out of someone who had any love for me.  How do you rip your children away from their mom out of anger and hurt?  I want to be angry and mad at him, but I’m not.  I am just confused and afraid.  I miss my children every minute of the day and every second of the night.  Looking at their photos makes me cry because I only want to hold them and talk to them and kiss them and hug them… and I can’t.    Sometimes I wish I could go back 4 months and make different decisions but I know I made those decisions to help me.  I just didnt think through the effect it would have on him and the kids.  And I dont want my kids hurting and I dont want him hurting anymore.  And I can’t even tell him I’m sorry.

So I dug out my wedding scrapbook.  I remember when I finally made it, 2007 I think it was, after 7 years of marriage.  I went on a scrapbooking retreat in Pismo Beach, CA.  This was back when I was a paper scrapper.  I worked mostly on this album during the retreat.  I even took my printer with me!

Looking at the album makes me smile.  He was so young.  So handsome, so ready to be married.  Or maybe we both thought we were.  I think it was a novelty, the idea of being married.  It sounded grand and exciting.   I know one week after our wedding reality hit.  I lost my job and a few weeks later was pregnant.  Everything quickly changed and nothing was so exciting anymore.

Mmmm…. now to just make it thru this day!  (and for those that care, the paper used is from Basic Gray, the Scarlet Collection).

Oh… uhm, where did October come from?  Shoot!  I dont know why but I wasnt really realizing that the end of September had passed me by.

I want to thank all those that left such uplifting messages in August.  Things have been difficult and I can’t go into it on my blog because its an ongoing drama and could possibly be used against me.  How sad that my one outlet for speech can be twisted and used for harm.  I can only say that I am in a healthier state of mind, body and soul and even though I miss my kids, life and dogs immensely, I know deep down that I made the right choice.  Sometimes we need to step away to see how toxic something is and I hope that the other person can see this clearly now.  I wish… well, I dont wish for anything except acceptance and to have the other person move beyond the hurt.

You might be arriving here from Jen C Designs‘ blog.   I apologize for not having my post up but  I am working on your lil freebie now so stop back by!    You can pick up my part of the train below.  Again, not so mini, but not as large of a kit as last month!  Still, definitely worth the wait I think.  You can grab up coordinating parts by following the train, so click your way thru the entire list located at The Blog Train or head over to the next stop:  JanetB Designs.

Ok, here is a preview of what you’re getting from me, 15 papers and 30 elements.  And you can see from the preview of where I am opening my new store… someday!  Its not a priority to open it but I still want to and am working on having all my kits QC’d prior to going in the store.  So run over to Stuff to Scrap and check out all the goodies and then wait for my Grand Opening!

You will need to download 4 folders to get all the pieces.  So count… 1, 2, 3, 4!  

            Download Elements        

Download Papers1

Download Papers2

Download Papers3

Wow, I cannot believe it is August!  I haven’t blogged in over a month… or done much else for that matter.  I left DigiridooScraps and planned to open a new shop July 1st but that didn’t happen.  I am still planning on opening it, I just am dealing with a lot of drama right now and unfortunately, digital design, scrapping and getting online are not in my list of priorities.  Since I posted last, my youngest son turned 6, saw my sisters and mom in Las Vegas, I rekindled an old friendship, destroyed my marriage, my oldest turned 10, and am in the process of losing my home, my business and my kids.  All that in less than 2 months.

I did sit down this week to create my blog train freebie for you all.  I hope its ok.  I dont feel that its my best work and not as original as I like my kits to be but it is all my brain could create at this time.  I am sure you all have had problems so you know how it affects your thinking, concentration and creativity.  The only thing that seems to be working correctly is my tear flowage!  That doesnt seem to stop.

*So I think posting at 1:30am is not a good time to post because I forgot lots of info, like where to go next on the train, and where you can for a full list.  DUH!  So if you want to start at the beginning of the blog train, start HERE.  Or head to the stop after me: Color with Caryn (BTW, she rocks).

Without further ado, here is the preview of the kit you are getting.  Its NOT a mini, either.  There are 14 papers and 31 elements.

Click below for the direct download links.  Make sure you get both parts.

Download Papers                           Download Elements

goodbye for now… well, not from my brand new blog and not from digiscrapping but from my shop at Digiridoo Scraps.  DRS has been my scrap home for the past year and half.  First as a hangout, then I did the marketing/ads and finally as a junior designer in the mentor program they had for staff.

When I first found digital scrapping, I was a brand new stay at home mom who turned to digi when I had to regretfully pack up my scrap garage to move to a new house we were buying.  We ended up staying with my In-Laws for 3 weeks while escrow closed.  Now for a scrap addicted gal, this was heart breaking!  But I had recently discovered some amazing blogs and a whole world of digital when I was looking online to tutorials on how to make my own papers for the crafts I sold on Etsy.  So I spent my torturous 3 weeks blog hopping and falling in a deep addiction of freebies!  Yep… You know what I’m talking about, huh?  Now mind you, I didnt even know how to use Photoshop but that sure didnt stop me from collecting all these free goodies.

By the 2nd week, I created my own blog and http://iamsimplysarah.blogspot.com was born.  I quickly learned how to digi scrap on Photoshop 7 and was instantly addicted.  I started attending speed scraps all the time, sometimes 2  in a row.  I loved it!  I started joining CT’s, with my very first being with Nicole Parker of Digi-Designs by Nicole who now owns Stuff to Scrap.  I was on 15 teams at one point.  Crazy!  WOW.  Then I fell in love with social media!  Yep… Twitter and Facebook!  My love of sharing news led me to the advertising/marketing gig at DRS and I loved it!  At some point, I discovered the fun of designing while working with CU products from Color with Caryn and I joined the mentor program.  I have learned so much and quickly found my unique style in designing.

Then life hit my perfect pixelated world and I had to get a job.  I started out full time but it quickly progressed to full time and more.  I was never home, and when I was I was exhausted.  Now most jobs are not that exhausting but this one was because I worked for a home daycare with a large license, meaning that 14 children could be there.  (Now if you read my old blog, you know this didnt work out and I wont even bother re-hashing all the drama)  A few months ago I left and have since been working on getting a license to open my own home daycare.  Its been alot of work.  We had changes to make to the house to make it child friendly and not obnoxious looking for everyday living.  We finally received our license in May, 3 months after starting the process.  I created our website and the logo was donated by the wonderful Sarah Barber who also created my digi logo!  How awesome is that!  I made t-shirts with my daycare logo, flyers, business cards, etc and have been trying to round up more kids to attend.  Its actually been really exhausting and stressful!

So to cut this long tale short, I haven’t even created a layout in 3 months or so.  Its heart breaking.   How can I continue my digi existance with no layouts of R.Patz?  Really, I should be shot!  I have made a few new digital kits but I havent even had time to upload them to the shop.  How sad is that?  So I made the heart wrenching decision to leave DRS, both as the marketing gal and as a designer.

So where does that leave me?  Here… at this little piece of web called my blog!   Come back by, bookmark me, add me to your RSS feed, get email updates (my personal fav option), follow me on twitter or facebook and be on the lookout for new stuff!  I will give away kits (as long as I continue to get wonderful interactive comments) and I will post hybrid projects (yep, I dug out all that paper stuff and have been loving the glue on my hands).

Thanks for reading!

Hello all!   Welcome to my new blog and NEW designer name!  (And please forgive the lack of fun stuff on my blog, I am teaching myself wordpress.)  Whoot!  What a surprise.  I kept planning on making a big deal out of the new name with fun and games but silly real life has been keeping me hopping.  If you have NO IDEA who I was (some days I don’t either), then stop by my old blog and looky around.  Either way, I am still giving you a cute mini kit for FREE!

And for those coming from Psychozoe Designs‘ blog, welcome!  I hope you had fun gathering up her stuff!

So is everyone having fun picking up all the bits and pieces to this fun loving train?  I just adore the colors and of course, the theme too!  I always call my kids monkeys so I know that I can scrap lots of layouts with all the wondrous contributions from the other designers.

Here is my contribution for you:

Here are the DIRECT download links for you….

Elements Papers

Say thank you before you run on over to Unforgettable Moments to grab the next part.  And if you just jumped on this train, then you can always go back and start at the beginning by clicking HERE.

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